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March 26, 2004

I wax painfully at the cut on my finger. It’s been there for 1 whole day. It’s really such a little cut, I see no reason for it to be there at all. One should have faster-magic epidermis so that one can get over smallish-paper-like cuts faster. However, one does not.

The rest of the day will come and the weekend will follow shortly. After that, weeks go by, then months, then years. Is time speeding up as I grow older. I take that back, I’m not growing older, I’m shrinking older, as that’s the type I’d much rather be.

Reading Miss Angelina’s posts have gotten me all poetic and thoughtful. I guess that’s really why I read her. Her blog. Hmmm. And now that she’s gone and gotten some comments going, I can pretend I talk to her all the time and she’s my best friend who lives in San Francisco (my second-favorite city in the world) and she says things like “deluxe” and means it; how if I ever did that, I would just sound like a lameass and how she’s much better and more realistic than my other pretend friends. Then I can go on about how I wish I was somewhere with cool fascinating people, and of course I would be telling this to my “rl” friends, and they would just have to shove me in a trashcan and leave me there for a while. But then again, maybe I’ll just sit quietly in the corner and think about the cut on my finger.

My mind isn’t being made up at all. I feel as if I’m standing at a crossroads where one path has a sign stating “Left” and the other “?” and I’m just not ready for that kind of commitment. Of course, I have been making quite a few commitments lately. I like my gung fu dojo so much I actually signed on for a year. I figure that’s okay, as my cell phone contract is for 2 years, and I’m paying my car off this month. Why must I expand my living to fill my means? Am I fucking nuts?

In other news, I think I may just have to go see “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” this weekend. I’ve been looking forward to it.


so was it good?

hope your cut is ok.

Posted by: j-a at March 28, 2004 11:30 PM

Hey Dev i have been really enjoying your site and it's quite creative. It also keeps me uptodate on you and the boy. Its time for some new pictures, and i can't wait to see you this summer. Miggies birthday is this week. the 29th. and what do you have planned for your mom's big 50? i hope all is well and enjoy the kung fu shit. Love Aunt SU

Posted by: auntie su at March 29, 2004 4:45 AM

can someone tell zach that his upsaid account has expired and that i can't leave comments on his site as much as i would like to!

Posted by: j-a at March 29, 2004 5:38 AM

ended up not seeing the movie this past weekend because i am lame. ungh.
aunt su - hi!!! for new pics, see the latest post. yay for grandma on her bday - i'll be up there in july, so she'll have to wait for her gift until then. as for mom's bday, it's on the second night of pesach!!! i may just have to have her over for dinner. i think she may want to hang out with her friends, though, because i'm just a lame homebody. pfft.
j-a - doood. zach knows about the annoyances of his blogging software wanting him to pay for their services. i'm telling him to get on it.

Posted by: devlyn at March 30, 2004 4:06 PM

i take back what i said about my mom's bday - i'm a day ahead of meself.

Posted by: devlyn at March 31, 2004 9:01 AM