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... and back to the confused 13 year old
July 20, 2004

You may call me Ms. LazyPants if you want, it doesn't do much for me. There are just so many things going on right now, not much of which I really feel comfortable talking about here just yet. I mean, should I write when I really have nothing to write about?

I guess I could wish happy birthdays upon the people whose time has come to tick that number up a notch. So to Pants, Gabby, Mammacita, Fern, and Chan, Happy Birthday. My own birthday is less than a month away, which I'm not really looking forward to. Well, it's not really I'm not looking forward to it, it's just that birthdays lose their charm over the years, and the best I can hope for is a little cash in the mail to help me purchase the ghost of an iPod Mini.

I?ve been tired almost constantly lately, and have been trying to figure out if it's from depression or lack of sleep. Could be both, I suppose, as depression usually causes lack of sleep. I just plain need to be harder on myself when I know that it's my bedtime. I'm acting as if I'm 12, and just want to stay up past midnight to see what it's like. I put off sleeping for far too long, and end up not wanting to get up in the morning. I've been doing this for as long as I can remember, which possibly means I'll be doing it as I get older. Then again, maybe turning the big 25 will put a stop to this tomfoolery, and I'll suddenly become a grown-up - one who wakes up naturally at 6am and feels refreshed and alive. Or not.

So, maybe I'll decide to share some of these things that are going on in the near future. I feel like I may have a bit more of an open forum here than I do even in the best of friends. However, it's hard to get a computer to hold hands with you. Unless it?s a fernbot.

Look at me, I'm sooo pensive. And yet lame.


i have a couple of things up my sleeve too, ha.

Posted by: j-a at July 21, 2004 7:17 AM

No, no not lame! Pensive and artistic and deep and unfathomable!


Posted by: teahouseblossom at July 21, 2004 1:14 PM

Don't worry. As you get older your body starts forcing you to go to bed at a reasonable hour whether you want to or not. My bedtime these days is 9:30. I used to be a rock star...

Posted by: Auntie Sarah at July 21, 2004 4:31 PM

Snap Out of IT! and just what is it? I stay up all night all the time. yes you do need sleep but are you exercising? exercise gets rid of those epent up frustrated emotional bs that we all drag around. So get up and go out. Love ya

Posted by: auntie su at July 24, 2004 9:37 AM