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November 12, 2003

so i've hit a plateau. really, i hit it back in august. for those of you who don't know me, i've been trying to lose weight for the past year and 4 months. i got memberships to 24-hour fitness back in june 2002 for ben and i. at the worst, i weighed 265 pounds. i know, that's a shitload of weight. i was totally fat. i was wearing size 22 pants, and couldn't shop pretty much anywhere but layne bryant. i was depressed. i disgusted myself.

anyhow, i'm down to about 209 now, but i've been this exact weight (plus or minus a few pounds, depending on the day and salt intake) since august. i joined the 24/5 program at my gym back in march to help me lose more fat, and to help me gain muscle and strength and all that. they pretty much tell you what you should be eating and i meet with a personal trainer once every two weeks to change my workout. so since i've been on this plateau (where one neither loses nor gains weight), i've been pretty pissed off. mostly at myself.

so when i met up with the personal trainer yesterday, i told her my worries, etc. she told me that i couldn't cheat any more. and that's just from the info she gets from what i write down in my eating journal. so, to get myself off of this plateau, i'm wanting to go to the gym at least 5 times a week to do my weights and cardio, and i'm giving up drinking completely to help myself lose more fat fat fat fat fat. all in all, i think i may have a bit less time to keep up this page, so please don't hate me for going a couple of days in between posts. hopefully, this won't happen, as i can write down what i want to post at work, and i can just throw it up here when i get home at night. whenever that is. so wish me luck, and i'll keep you all updated.