The problem with feeling ill is that I’m always second-guessing myself. While in school, I was tortured to the point of making myself sick, just so I wouldn’t have to go. Nowadays, I tend to feel sick when I don’t want to do something, rather than just being the good little girl I am and toughing it out.
Last night, I was planning on going to the gym right after I arrived home. Instead, in the car ride home, I was having stomach cramps and the like. By the time I arrived at chez moi, I felt truly horrible indeed. And there was no way I was going to go to the gym like that. So I made a pact with myself: if I felt better after an hour of lazing about, I would go to the gym… if not… well, I would just have to deal with that when I got to it.
So I spent some time reading, watching anime, and knitting. When the hour was up, I did indeed feel better, so I tortured myself at the gym for a while (bout an hour and a half). Of course, I felt really proud of myself for actually going, because I’ve been really really lazy on that front for a while. And I always forget the high that I get after working out. I’m nothing like Ms. E J Shea and her boot camp (+gym, +yoga, +godliness). Knowing me, I could use someone yelling at me to run every morning. I would probably just pay the hellish amount of money, go for one day, and forget about it.
So I’ve joined up with Ms. Skinny Kat in her quest to lose her ass by her birthday, which is on April 3rd. I figure this is a good way of making myself jump the hell off of this plateau I’ve been riding for the past 6 months. Over the last year and a half, I’ve lost over 55 pounds, but I really haven’t lost anything at all since August. With the trip to Australia coming up this August, I have to get my ass in gear and actually lose some more fat before I even get close to putting a bathing suit on. I don’t think the snorkel people will let me swim in a t-shirt and shorts. So let’s have this be my goal for the year – for me to be able to comfortably purchase a swimming suit by late summer. I’ll try to keep track of my progress somewhere, and post it here once in a while. More likely, I’ll post on Ms. Skinny Kat’s site. So if you want to help her get that pink iPod she’s been drooling over, sign up and add an inch or two to her losses.