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but what about the children?
July 29, 2004

This getting up early biz is totally reducing my hours of real awakeness during the day. Even though I was telling myself I didn't want to, I took my walk this morning like a good little girl, accompanied by Luna, my newly named iPod. I can tell you that she was a whiz, figuring out what exactly I needed to listen to at which time. I love her.

So, I’m tired, duh. I really don't like being tired all day. I’ve tried the "going to bed earlier" trick, but that doesn't seem to help. Well, that is, I went to bed at 11 last night, which is the earliest I’ve gotten in bed all week. I probably should have fallen asleep earlier, but starting a new book (see: reading list) did help, as I’m still infatuated with a new! book!

Right now I’m thinking that maybe my life is just flying by too quickly. I’m up to the point in my life where I’m actually wishing there were more hours in the day, so I can have the time to do what I need to be able to do après work. Also, when I’m at work, I tend to get frustrated and generally annoyed quite easily and quickly, which really isn't fun. I let go of anger and whatnot rather quickly, but I have a feeling that someday it's all just going to build up within me and my head will explode. While this may be at least mildly entertaining for some, I would rather live with my head than without.

Also, one of you lawyer people (you know who you are) should help me out with this whole PayPal Class Action Settlement. Can I get money out of this? The email that I got was all full of legal talk, which I tend to ignore usually, so I have no clue whatsoever which category I fall into. I did have issues with PayPal a couple of years ago where they took an extra $.50 out of my bank account and transferred it to my PayPal account. I was never able to get ahold of anyone there that could help me figure out why it happened, but I haven’t had any issues since then, so I’ve kind of forgotten about it. If it’s too much of a hassle, I don’t want to worry about getting my $11.50 check from PayPal, because lord knows that everyone and his or her mother, father, brother-in-law, and niece will be trying to get $$$. So, you know, whatev.

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falling in love... all over again...
July 28, 2004

i apologize for the crappy phonecam imageWhich is all rather silly, as she hasn't done anything for me just yet. I mean, she's just sitting here silently, suckling electricity through her slim white cable. I've barely touched her, and yet, it's impossible to not look at her. I want to use her like nothing else. Unfortunately, I have to wait until I get home to be able to do so. But what a sweet bliss that will be.

Milestones:

I apologize to all, as this is copied from an email that I just sent, and I thought it would be good to include here:
The B is in Israel, and has been for a little more than a month - he'll be back a week from today! Yay!!
Next Saturday (7th of August), I'm testing for my next belt in kung fu. I'm really nervous because I haven't been practicing at all, and I've been a total slacker. We'll see how I make it through; update forthcoming.
The holiday to OZ is coming up quickly, and is slightly freaking me out because I'd like to lose like 10 more pounds before I go (and just get healthier in general - I'm at about 190 right now)... so I've been walking a lot in the morning and climbing up to the top of Camel's Back daily to train myself for the outback. I'll be leaving the 26th of August.
As for everything else, it's the same. So there. Hmph.

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the return of the flied
July 23, 2004

So, since everyone knows I'm a big lazy butt, and I haven't been in the writing mood all week (read: so! little! time!), I'm just going to post a picture for all to enjoy of the view that awaits me at the litteral pinnacle of my morning walk (read: hike).


I also (finally!) purchased an iPod today (the new 20gig iPod in non-girly snow white), then promptly cancelled it. When I was going through the order process, I was rushing, not reading anything along the way, because if I didn't buy that iPod now, then I would probably never get one, because they don't actually exist until I have one in my hands! So, when I go back to see what I actually bought, I realized that apple.com is giving free customized engraving on the new iPods, and being one that doesn' pass up an offer (also being greedy and wanting something cute engraved into my iPod for! free!), I called them to see if I could get it done after placing my order. Of course, I couldn't, so they had to cancel my order so I could start over from scratch. Therefore, I've been clicking the refresh button all day on the stupid order status screen to see when the order is finally completely cancelled so I can start over. Which had better happen darned soon, as it's absolutely necessary that I get this iPod ASAP. Because I'm impatient like that.

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... and back to the confused 13 year old
July 20, 2004

You may call me Ms. LazyPants if you want, it doesn't do much for me. There are just so many things going on right now, not much of which I really feel comfortable talking about here just yet. I mean, should I write when I really have nothing to write about?

I guess I could wish happy birthdays upon the people whose time has come to tick that number up a notch. So to Pants, Gabby, Mammacita, Fern, and Chan, Happy Birthday. My own birthday is less than a month away, which I'm not really looking forward to. Well, it's not really I'm not looking forward to it, it's just that birthdays lose their charm over the years, and the best I can hope for is a little cash in the mail to help me purchase the ghost of an iPod Mini.

I?ve been tired almost constantly lately, and have been trying to figure out if it's from depression or lack of sleep. Could be both, I suppose, as depression usually causes lack of sleep. I just plain need to be harder on myself when I know that it's my bedtime. I'm acting as if I'm 12, and just want to stay up past midnight to see what it's like. I put off sleeping for far too long, and end up not wanting to get up in the morning. I've been doing this for as long as I can remember, which possibly means I'll be doing it as I get older. Then again, maybe turning the big 25 will put a stop to this tomfoolery, and I'll suddenly become a grown-up - one who wakes up naturally at 6am and feels refreshed and alive. Or not.

So, maybe I'll decide to share some of these things that are going on in the near future. I feel like I may have a bit more of an open forum here than I do even in the best of friends. However, it's hard to get a computer to hold hands with you. Unless it?s a fernbot.


Look at me, I'm sooo pensive. And yet lame.

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... jiggity jig.
July 13, 2004

I'm back. And let me tell you, boys and girls, there is nothing worse than a Monday at work after a lovely holiday.

It was indeed wonderful, as I?m sure you were all dying to hear. I wasn't able to swim the entire time I was in MI, due to rain and general crappy weather. I don't think it was warmer than 72F on any of the days I was there, so I had to settle into wearing long pants and the one sweater I brought. However, not all was a loss, as I had a fantabulous time, and got to see the Grandma. One more thing to tell you: the Grandma rocks. There were a few things I found out about my family that surprised me a bit. Like my family drinks. A lot. They're not drunkards or anything, they just enjoy a good bruhaha, I guess.

A small photo essay of the highlights? Sure, why not:


The G'ma's house is awesome. Heart.


The G'ma's lake is awesome as well. This was the day I arrived. The only really nice day.


We went to a very windy, rainy, and cold Mackinac Island, where I promptly walked to the Grand Hotel. I was soaked from head to toe by the time I got there (approx. 7 mins. walking), and ended up drinking $10 vodka collins(es?) until I was dry.


One of the really really cool things I found while rifling through G'ma's stuff was a photo album my G'pa kept when he was in the Army, stationed in occupied Japan. Most of the photos I took of the photos were totally blurry, but hopefully one of these days, I'll be able to steal them away long enough to scan them all in. Also found was a scrapbook my G'ma kept when she was in high school. She told me to hide it so no one would ever find it again. I should have stolen it. I never knew she was such a social butterfly - oh the committees, oh the sororities. She's so bleeding cute.
And that's about it, folks. I should have taken more pics, but what can you do? I was there to enjoy myself, not document my life minute-by-minute. That's what I have the B for, but he's in Israel until Aug. 4th. Hmph.

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adieu, adieu to you and you and you
July 2, 2004

Have you ever noticed that 95% of the human population walks duck-footed? Like with the toes pointed out? I find that completely strange for some reason; maybe it’s because I don’t walk like that. When walking or running, my feet point directly in front of me. This can be a challenge when hiking, because I’ve found that when walking downhill, and for the most part, uphill, one wants to have the inside of the foot pointed forward. I’ve had to retrain myself in this aspect, and yet I still have issues with it. How does everyone else do it? I'm thinking that there are absolutely no duck genes in my family.

My lovely MI holiday starts early tomorrow morning, when I wake up at the crack of 3.30 to get ready for the airport funness. I’ve been looking forward to this for so long; it’s hard to believe that it’s finally less than 24 hours away. I will most likely not have any kind of email/computer/technology other than a teevee access for the time I’m up there, and I don’t have anyone that I would really want to guest blog, so you’ll just have to live without me for 9 days or so. I promise to take lots of pretty pictures (that wouldn’t include me in the bathing suit) to post here when I get back.

We are going to be going to Mackinac Island (pronounced Mackinaw, and sometimes spelled that way), which I highly recommend to anyone up in the MI peninsula, as it is so very totally awesome. I personally plan on gaining at least 5 pounds while on the island from eating fresh fudge (since 1887!) and just-pulled saltwater taffy. I’ll get sick from too much sweets and puke up that 5 pounds, but it will be entirely worth it.

I hope everyone has a fun and safe Independence Day weekend (for the ‘merikans here - stay away from those dangerous sparklers!), and don’t be too pain-stricken and heartbroken until my return (leave a lot of comments! ^_^ )

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