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In which I give some up...
April 13, 2007

Do you know how strange it is to get in the shower with clothing on? This is what I've been doing for the past 2 days, and will probably continue until my washer is fixed. I scrub my clothes for the day while they're on me, then, when I get out of the shower, I put them in the dryer with my towel to dry. It's working pretty well, so far...

In other news: the Big News: I asked my husband Ben for a divorce almost a month ago. There has been some major (expected) upheaval since then, and I've been rather manic/depressive since then. The final papers will be filed 2 weeks from Monday.

There were a lot of reasons behind this decision, and it was not an easy choice to make. I have lost friends over it, and had a whole lot of judgment passed upon me all at once. I was pretty much abandoned by everyone I know, save for family and 1 other person, and it made me think of what is truly important in this life. Once everything is over and "done with" (even though it is never "done with," but continues to possibly be baggage over the next few decades), I might be able to disclose a few more details. Until then, do know that I am mostly happy, and when not drinking, almost entirely happy. Reality is not something I want to contend with, but it may be something I need to put on my watch list.